For Posting's Sake

I'm WAY too tired to do this right now, but it's now or never. Ezra is taking a good nap, and I'm just going to bang something out here before I crash too. Brendan and I have tickets for The 39 Steps tonight, so I want to be fresh and rested this evening.

So, here we go.

It's been generally good. I'm covered in fresh bruises every week because I'm new at (or at least unpracticed) at rolling around on the floor. I love every bruise and wear them like they are the stickers I got at the doctor's office for being a brave girl during my shots. I have enjoyed dancing modern for the last month, though my inner ballerina is often wondering what the hell is going on. Our company class is engaging for my body, brain, and heart and is therefore a testament to the talent of our teacher/choreographer, Assistant Director, Angela. It has been really fun getting to know my fellow company members, and I hope to become very close to each of them. Dancing is such an intimate sport-art.

Each week, my tiny pooch that contains Snap, our newest baby, gets poochier, and I LOVE to think about how I'm dancing with him or her. I wonder if the baby feels my adrenaline and endorphine rushes along with the increased oxygenation and blood flow. I hope so. :) This pregnancy has been my healthiest yet, and I just already have this sense that I've got one fun, tough cookie growing in there.

My only complaint, really, is that I don't love all the choreography that we're rehearsing. Now, you better still come to the show because it is interesting and entertaining. It's just a real challenge to me. There's a lot of us having to fill in the blanks with improv. You know how I feel about improv... not great. Also, I tend to be much more balletic than the choreographers want, so I'm continually trying to dance in a way that does not jive with my own aesthetic views. But, that's being a dancer, so I'm doing my best to adapt. I think some of my difficulty has to do with just being out of practice. And, honestly, my skin thinned some. I can take correction, but I don't think I've ever had the sense that someone doesn't like the way my dancing generally looks. At PNB, they only take you if you already have the look they want, so I never really had to take that sort of criticism. Don't get me wrong; I'm sure that my directors think I'm lovely, and they have said so. I just can see by the dancers they put on the pedestal that they are looking for something that ain't really me. But, I'll get there. Like I said, I'm out of practice.

Ok, now for my brief dancer version of a geek-out:
I DO like the choreography for the trio piece that I'm in. The beginning parts are not my aesthetic, shall we say, but I enjoy the challenge of trying to be "thrashy and jerky." BUT, the latter parts of the piece are real dancing that, believe it or not, require technique and training. It has tons of turns, and there is one pass that is particularly challenging. It's all modern-y, so I don't quite know how to translate it exactly but it's something like this:
double attitude turn in plie, about face, inside a la second turn into inside pirouette (triple, thank you very much), into this coupe jete barrel turn sort of thing (the modernies call it a "C" jump), finished with a conniption. That all happens in about 10 counts. I love it :)